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Monday, October 10, 2011 above all else, keep thy heart



I've heard it's been said, and I believe -- that if it matters to you, it matters to God. Even if you think it's a silly and inconsequential thing, like an ulcer, God cares even more because He holds your entire world.

I always always genuinely believed that.

Sadly, my behavior and actions don't always show that I believe He cares.

It took hours of listening to Pastor Prince's messages and nights sobbing into my pillow to make me realize: this just cannot be it. Am I not told I am living a life of triumph; that I'm more than a conqueror because I believe in a love that has victory over every pain; every sickness; every disaster; every principality and power?

Why do I still walk like I'm defeated?

Slowly, it began to make sense -- because I refuse to let my heart be untroubled. I let petty and unreasonable thoughts fester in my mind; take seed in my heart and grow. I try to guard everything else in my life and fight like a wounded animal. Everything: job, relationship, friendships... Everything except my heart. I let it grow embittered.

Slowly, I am seeing what has been the missing key. As much as I believe and want to take hold of the immense promises of abundant life, I cannot. Because I did not guard my heart. That was the only condition for the peace Jesus promised, that Shalom, to enter my life.

I believe this: When I guard my heart with diligence and i disallow it to fret and come up with deceitful lies, God guards everything else in my life and makes everything good in His time.